Explanation...
Posted by Victoria Long , Thursday, August 6, 2009 10:09 AM
This is for all my close friends on myspace roleplay whom may want to hear this simple explanation. Yes, it's quite simple. Nothing too extreme.
I started roleplaying a long time ago. Since about I was 11 years old? I took pleasure in becoming someone else - stepping into the shoes of another and doing what I wanted. It was like living under the sea, full of countless mysteries. Or flying above a pale, blue sky - limitless. There were no boundaries for me. I've always lived a careful life set with many boundaries and restrictions, and roleplay was a way for me to escape into a world without restrictions. I was able to do anything I desired. It's a precious feeling.
Roleplay was also a way to escape the harsh realities of this world. As a mere 12-year old I was already reflecting on religion, how corrupt this tainted world is. And it sickened me. We live in a society full of blood, sex, deciet, drugs, being brainwashed into believing there is a God somewhere, somehow. I was determined to find a way out of this revolting twist of the world. Instead, I fell into it, and went along with the blood, the sex, the deciet. I willingly let myself become a bad person, for I felt that was the only way I could escape these things.
But then I met people who changed me in highscool. And I realized - what am I doing? Lying, not being truthful to myself...it hurt. It truly hurt. Especially since I had wonderful people around me all the time - my friends. The only people I've only ever been truthful to.
So...now that I look back, roleplay was wonderful. But it was also a terrible thing. It's become a reflection of our society so quickly...give it three years, and look what it's become. A place for people to show off, to judge and criticize. To never give a chance, as we are towards people in this horrid world.
I have to leave because it's been a great 6 years on roleplay. I've met so many wonderful people. The closest of them being Anju-chan, Isa, Ethan, Byron, Lelouch, Jin-kun, Navi, Shi-kun, Allen, Youji, Chiodos, Vira, and sooo many others. You all have been such wonderful friends. And I will never take our friendship for granted.
With that being said, it's just been too long, and I don't have the time or nerve anymore. Too much drama to keep up with, I'm just not going to bother anymore. But I still want to keep track of everyone I listed above, for you are the ones who truly matter to me through all of the people I've met over the years.(:
Myspace link: http://www.myspace.com/metal__diva
Facebook: Look up facebook.com/Nightwishian(but do this when you're LOGGED IN or else it won't work)
Thank you to everyone who has made a difference in my young life so far. x3
You were all worth the time. I will never take our bonds for granted.
Now, add me, or face the wrath of my dictionary power! >O
With love,
Victoria
